The Decision to Decide

    The decision making process has always been fascinating to me.  Some decisions come and go effortless while others are labored on and toiled over for weeks.  How do we choose which decisions will be considered important and which minor in comparison?  You may see that this questions doesn't really carry any weight at all.
   Being slated to graduate college this December has left me with a lingering feeling of uncertainty for the future.  I've always been a self-motivated and goal oriented individual so the thought of no more accomplishment boxes to tick off frightens me.  Sure, I have a few job options lined up, but I've never felt that a job was the end to my story.  Should I go back to college again?  Move to a different state? Become a monk?
   This battle in my head made my recognize the fact that while I obsessed with this decision every second of every day, I missed the opportunity to take ownership of my smaller decisions and in turn, my daily life.  While in my car pondering another coarse of study, I made the choice to not stop and photograph a winding mountain road splashed in fall glow.  While paying for coffee and calculating if I could afford another school loan, I made a choice to show my ugliness and be less than polite with the attendant.  While making lunch in my kitchen and stressing over where to look for an apartment, I made the choice not to enjoy the moment and wrestle with my eager bulldog.  All of these less than miraculous decisions where made by my subconscious mind while my conscious mind dealt with an issue that is still months away and ultimately not contributing to my current quality of life.
   Seeing every daily decision, especially the smaller, as a stepping stone towards a larger self picture has helped me gain confidence and also see impacts that those decisions can have on myself and those around me.  Once I recognized that all my decisions were important, I was able to gain a feeling of empowerment over my mood and the direction of my day.  Choosing this mindset will allow your mind to operate more like a helpful, community centered small business and less like a cut-throat, task centered corporation.  It's never too late to adapt and practice this philosophy.  After all, there will always be more days full of fall glow.